My wife told me she wants to break up. She wants me to move out of the house, because due to PTSD from her childhood, someone being around who she disappointed or hurt is a trigger for her. I told her I love her and I want to fix the ways I had failed as a husband, the ways I had failed to contribute enough to help her. I am trying my best but she says that the turnaround on my part has been too sudden, and it has given her emotional whiplash. She is angry that I wasn’t doing these things sooner. The truth is that I have been suffering from depression but, when she made it clear she wanted to break up, I realized my failures were ruining not only my marriage and my wife’s life, but our two kids’ happiness too. It is for them that I have managed to turn things around. But the truth is, I think she is very angry at me and just wants me gone. I wish I was gone. I have been trying so hard. I originally tried to gently tell her I didn’t want to move out because of the effect it would have on the kids. I wanted to try to work with her. To save us.
She has agreed to go to therapy with me but I am just so overwhelmed with sadness. She says she can barely bear to be in the house with me because I am triggering her, and that it is bleeding over into how she treats the kids. I don’t know what to do. I’m not okay. I’m so overwhelmed. I’m sorry if this is impossible to read or understand. I’m so sad.