Oh boy, migraines. Fun fun.
SO, so much.
I don’t get them often - once a month if I’m unlucky - but when I do, they’re crippling. I get pretty reliable early warning signs, though, so I can usually get home from whatever I’m doing if I’m out, before they kick in properly.
It’ll start with a tiny dot right in the centre of my field of vision, right where I focus, of a kind of ‘disturbance’, like rapidly flickering colours in a vaguely geometric pattern. Over the course of about half an hour, this dot will expand in size and turn into a kind of crescent-moon shape like an inverted C that eventually covers nearly half of my entire field of vision. The edges of this crescent moon shape will be flickering very rapidly in every imaginable and unimaginable colour, too fast to identify, in shapes made up of straight lines and shapes, while the inside is completely blank. It’s not black, it’s not white - it’s simply an area where I cannot see a thing; a truly blind spot.
Some time at the end of the half hour or so this will go on, the visual disturbance will exit stage right, abruptly sliding out from my field of vision, and I’ll be overwhelmed with a sense of vertigo; nausea and dizziness sets in, and will be worsened with the tiniest movement of my head. This is usually about the point where I’m lying in bed, in total silence, with heavy blankets draped over my windows to keep the darkness as complete as I can get it – any kind of sound or light will cause the nausea to rear up to such a degree that I throw up violently(which, of course, makes me move, which makes the nausea even worse).
Then the pain sets in. It’s a constant, ‘squeezing’ kind of pain that goes in a band around the right side of my head, around the height of the temple, which coincidentally makes it feel like my right eye is about to pop out of my skull from the pressure. All I can do is lie very still, try not to move a muscle, and hope I pass out quickly. I won’t say I fall asleep, exactly - I lose consciousness abruptly, can’t remember any dreams, and it feels like I’ve simply drifted off for a moment, but the amount of time I’m out can be anything from a couple of hours to a whole day.
Thankfully, the whole thing will be gone by the time I come to. I’ll be feeling very drained, though, and it’s not uncommon for me to have to more or less sleep around the clock for a couple of days before I’m back to my usual self.
I’ve told doctors a couple of times. They’ve usually prescribed painkillers, which is pretty funny given that painkillers simply don’t work on me unless they’re at a dosage that’s hazardous to my health.